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maradi bozi
(literaturuli gamokvleva)


SeuZlebelia SemCneuli ar gyavdeT. gldanis lomisis saxelobis wmida giorgis eklesiis ezoSi, naZvis ZirSi zis xSirad. naTreobis kvali imdenad emCneva, is mokle kaba romc ar Caicvas, mainc miujdebi da etyvi: _ saidanRac mecnobi, xom ici?! is gagicinebs (ukana kbilebi gafuWebuli aqvs), xels dagadebs muxlze da kai oxeri iqnebi Senco, getyvis. mere mzesumziras aaknawunebT da roca laparakiT daiRlebiT _ masTan midixarT. is gldanSi cxovrobs; meore mikroraionis dasawyisSi, erToTaxiani bina aqvs naqiravebi da Sennairi stumrebic iq midian. roca Sexval (Tu pirvelad xar), gagikvirdeba sxva kaci rom dagxvdeba sawolze gaSotili, magram is kaci Cumad midis. Tu male waxval, ho-kargi, Tu Rame darCi kidev, is kaci Cumad Semodis da erTi bewo samzareuloSi (yavlaSvilis proeqts patara samzareuloebi aqvT) wveba taxtze. Sen albaT hkiTxav nesis, vinaao da gogoc gipasuxebs _ Cemi yofili sayvareli!

Turme is narkomani iyo, mere wamals Tavi daaneba da galoTda, magram RviZli iseT mdgomareobaSi hqonia, sisxls aRebinebs. xolo koWlobs imitom, rom avariaSi mohyva da xis Tu plastmasis fexi aqvs. roca ameebs giyveba nesi, Sen Tvli, rom gewuwuneba. gadawvdebi iatakze dagdebul Sarvals, amoiReb fuls da gadaRrecil tumboze Camodeb. nesi gadmogxedavs da marTla brazdeba. aiRe! _ getyvis da dgeba _ me mivdivar, Tu ginda darCi!

Sen, ra Tqma unda, ar rCebi, is ki samsaxurSi midis.

nesi jixurSi muSaobs gamyidvelad. mgoni oTx lars uxdian, magram rva laramde gamoudis dReSi. jixuris mepatrone kmayofilia misiT, radgan bevri klienti hyavs, Tumca, yoveli SemTxvevisaTvis, profilaqtikis mizniT, samuSao dRis bolos, gagdebiT emuqreba xolme nesis (magram am ukanasknels kargad esmis muqaris mizani da mSvidad ismens da itans Seuracxmyofel sityvebs). 

is rva lari, rasac Soulobs, maincadamainc ar hyofnis nesis, radgan, jer erTi, koWli unda Seinaxos, mere koWlis moxuci mamida, mere sakuTari Tavi da mere zogierTi Sennairi, romelic saxlSi wasasvlel fuls sTxovs, magram, miuxedavad amisa, nesi arasodes iRebs siyvarulisaTvis fuls.

da albaT amitomacaa Cven bevrni rom varT, Torem nesisTana qali male mosabezrebelia, radgan sawolSi maincadamainc ver iCens Tavs. mTeli dRis namuSevari, dagiwveba Tu ara, blitavs Tvalebs da ise male iZinebs, gikvirs, cudad xom ar gaxdao. Tu ukve icnob, SeiZleba Segecodos da ar gaaRviZo, Tu ara _ mujluguns hkrav, xelmeored gadaawvebi da cota brazianic Tu xar, aiZuleb gauCerebliv ilaparakos. is marTla ilaparakebs, SeiZleba uazrod, magram mainc ilaparakebs da mere Sen CageZineba. diliT ki, Zalian diliT, nesi wasulia. tumboze werili devs _ saocari vinme xaro da wasulia. Sen (Tu ar ici, rom yvelas amas eubneba) gaifuyebi da amayad mimoatareb oTaxSi Tvalebs. pirvelad, SeiZleba borotma azrmac gagielvos _ SeiZleba gadaaqoTo iqauroba da rame fasiani eZebo, magram meored arafris didebiT ar izam amas, meored, piriqiT, SeiZleba sadme kuTxeSi miagdo fuli da waxvide, magram erTi, rac cxadze cxadia _ es sawoli Segiyvardeba. arada, arafriT gansxvavebuli sawoli araa. rkinis Zveli, zambarebiani sawolia, romelzec matrasic ki ar agia.

 

pauza

 

am monakveTis dawera, ra Tqma unda, azradac ar mqonia ukanasknel wuTamde, sanam nacnobma sofikom, pirSi ar miTxra simarTle. da mainc, vecdebi naklebad gulaxdili viyo:

e.i. avadmyofoba damewyo (ara, mTlad avadmyofobas ver davarqmev imas, rasac Cemi fsiqologi nevrozs eZaxis). daaxloebiT ori wlis winaT, mas Semdeg, rac fexsacmeli maCuqes. fexsacmeli sakmaod kargia (is axlac maqvs Senaxuli, rogorc nivTmtkiceba) dasavleTevropuli romeliRac qalaqis, romeliRacAcnobili firmisa. fexsacmeli odnav naxmari iyo da Tumca garegnulad mSvenivrad gamoiyureboda, mainc iyo erTi ram, ramac kai ori-sami Tve (sanam sabolood SeveCveodi) fexi matkina. am fexsacmlis Zveli patroni quslebs SigniT cveTda, me ki piriqiT _ gareT vcveT! aman ki, rogorc vTqvi, fexi matkina, magram imasTan erTad, rom mec SigniT daviwye quslis gacveTa, sxva seriozuli cvlilebebic damewyo.

I cvlileba: _ cxviri gaRunuli mqonda marcxniv, axla maqvs marjvniv.

II cvlileba: _ saxe da tani damimrgvalda, xSirad vifurTxebi.    III cvlileba: _ samarSruto taqsSi adre vjdebodi marcxniv, axla vjdebi marjvniv.

IV cvlileba: _ gansakuTrebul siamovnebas maniWebs sibinZureSi amosvra da mere banaoba. xandaxan, dabanvis win, ezoSi Cavdivar, talaxSi gavgord-gamovgordebi da mere aTmagi siamovnebiT vbanaob.

V cvlileba: _ deda ufro Semiyvarda, vidre mama. vcdilob mamaze aRarc vifiqro, viTom gamonagonia...

VI cvlileba: _ locva daviwye qalur xatebTan.

da VII da umTavresi cvlileba, romelzec qveviT ufro dawvrilebiT visaubreb.

VII da umTavresi cvlileba: WamaSi (Sesabamisad seqsSic) Zalian pretenziuli viyavi, magram es pretenziuli damokidebuleba qalTaA sqesisadmi calmxrivad Seicvala. sakmarisia qali, Tundac (fuh!) binZuri da Seuxedavi, kargad Cacmuli, karg manqanaSi, ZvirfaseulobebiT Semkuli davinaxo, maSinaTve aRvigznebi da aRgznebuli var manam, sanam Tvals ar movaSoreb an survils ar davikmayofileb. am cvlilebam ganapiroba is faqti, rom Zvel partniorebs (nawilobriv) davSordi da Zieba davuwye axal seqsualur obieqtebs.

yvelaferTan erTad, aRmovaCine, rom Turme materiaSi imaze meti sulieri mJRavndeba, vidre Cven gvgonia da rom yvelaferi amaRlebuli, TviT xelovnebac ki, SeTxzuli da araraobaa imdenad, ramdenadac yvelaze metad materialistebi xelovani xalxia.

maS ra aris WeSmariteba? _ WeSmariteba isaa, rasac Seni goneba miwvdeba, anu is, rac Sen g-goni-a, rom WeSmaritebaa, radgan, sabolood, WeSmariteba mainc viRacis gamona-goni-a; aqedan gamomdinare, gadavwyvite Tavi damenebebina materializmis yvelaze SeniRbuli da mdabio formisTvis _ werisTvis da fulis Sovna damewyo ramenairad, nebismieri sxva saSualebiT. amasTan, davrwmundi, rom mecnierulad moazrovne goneba bevrad saRia, vidre mistikurad da transcendenturad momuSave tvini. TviT religiac ki, verafriT acda materias, radgan Cveni azrovneba, deda-miwis-euli azrovneba, xat-saxeebis gareSe ver wvdeba ze-grZnobads. aqedan gamomdinare, xatebi imitom Seqmna adamianma, rom Sefarulad sces Tayvani materias, an imitom, rom sinamdvileSi, is xati marTlac RvTiuris materialuri gamovlinebaa. aqedan daskvna: _ mater(laT. deda)ialisturi da idealisturi msoflmxedveloba erTi da igivea, orive erTad ki, imaze maRali ar aris, vidre erTi ubralo vaSlis xea.

Cemi mini dosie: davibade azrovnebiTi verZis wels, 25 ivniss, TbilisSi, rkinigzis samSobiaroSi. bavSvobaSi rame seriozuli travma ar gadamitania. var dediserTa. vswavlob universitetSi, sabanko-safinanso fakultetze. Cemi fsiqologis azriT, maqvs gandidebis maniis (megalomania) ukanaskneli faza. midrekileba maqvs suiciduri aqtisken, alkoholisken, narkotikebisaken. gamZafrebuli maqvs siamovnebis miRebis survili. gamovirCevi maRali emociurobiT.

mokled, esaa is monakveTi, romlis dawerac me Zalian ar mindodasaviT!

 

II nawili

 

Cemma didi xnis unaxavma megobarma, valerim gamomiara swored maSin, roca ubanSi videqi, vifurTxebodi, manqanebsa da qalebze vlaparakobdi da uzomod msurda gamdidreba. wavediT, ludi da arayi davlieT da radgan am dros ufro mZafrdeba Sinagani Tu qvenagani grZnobebi, qalebi mogvinda. valeris scodnia erTi, romelic `besproblem~ iZleva da iqeT mogvcems fuls Tuki vTxovTo.

_ oRond, Sen SeiZleba ar dagevasos, iseTi araa ra...

fuls Tu momcems, kaSeisac vixmar-meTqi da wavediT.

karebi koWlma gaaRo da SegvipatiJa. davsxediT da nesic gamovida. dabali da gamxdari gogo iyo, ase ocdaori wlis. saxeze imdeni raRac esva, ver gavarCie Zalian maxinji iyo Tu ara, amitom valeris vaniSne, wava-ra-meTqi.

valerim Tavis megobrad warmadgina da koWls uTxra, eseni da­v­to­voT, guramis raRac saqme aqvs da marto laparaki undao. koWli nesis miubrunda da ramden xanSi davbrundeo, hkiTxa. nesim me Semomxeda da mxrebi aiCeCa.

_ erT-or saaTSi ra! _ vTqvi da valeris Sevxede, romelic ukve karebSi idga.

_ manqanas davayeneb da amoval! _ miTxra da gavida.

roca valeri dabrunda, nesis ukve kargad vicnobdi da axla me davelode. gamovidnen da Cemze hkiTxa qals, ha, rogori Zmakaci myavso. nesim Zalian kargiao. Sen yvelaze egre ambobo, gaecina valeris. aba, maSin raRas mekiTxebio, gaecina nesisac da yavis mosaduReblad gavida. _ vale, is koWli vin iyo?

_ a, erTia ra! nesi inaxavs.

_ qmari xom ar aris?

_ ra-vi, SeiZleba. es ambobs arao. magasTan problemebi ar aris. ise, mogewona?

_ laxankaa, magram gaWir...

nesi Semovida.

_ nesi, muSaob kide?

_ ki, Ramis smena var.

_ isev iqa xar?

_ ara, iqedan wamovedi. aqve var metrosTan.

_ sxvagan gadasvlas xom ar apireb?

_ binidan?

_ xo!

_ jer ara mgonia, xazeikasTan problemebi ara maqvs, Tu mezoblebma ar miCivles.

_ mezoblebs ra undaT?

_ mainc, xom ici, biWebi rom modian...

_ icode, Tu sadme gadaxvedi, damireke! Cemi nomeri xo giweria?

_ ki.

_ hoda damireke.

_ ki, dagirekav, magram ara mgonia jer-jerobiT sadme wavide.

_ ai, guramasac magrad moewone da egec mova xolme.

_ marTla? sasiamovnoa!

wamosvlisas ori lari esesxa valerim, benzins Cavasxamo da wamovediT.

_ egre or-ori larobiT, kai asi lari maqvs gamorTmeuli. da ki ar mTxovs xolme, Steri gogoa magari, mara, ise alalia, eg Cemisa! xo egeTi waklaa, mara alalia... arc fuls iRebs, araferi.

_ ra ar iRebs, kargi, ra! aba, aslariani mieci, Tu ar aiRebs!

_ exla aslariani ar vici, mara bevrs SeuTavazebia fuli da ar iRebs, ar mindao.

_ saCuqrebs?

_ sa-Cuq-rebs... ra-vi, aba! albaT! me erTxel samlariani duxi mivutane da ise gauxarda, TiTqos diori iyoo. mere, is sami lari isev ukan wavarTvi, mara sul imas ambobs, Sen ro duxi momitane da Sen ro duxi momitaneo.

_ biWo, eg cotas xom ar uberavs?

_ ra vici... araa! rame Seatyve?

_ ara, araferi. ise magari banZia. amdeni kaci Tu hyavs, rame ver

iswavla? _ mZoriviT egdo.

_ xo, egeTia! mec ver vigeb rodis aTavebs xolme.

_ patara gogoa da ukve eseTi gabanZebuli. eg verc gaTxovdeba.

_ ra ver gaTxovdeba, iraklas naTesavi roa, sofleli roa, xviCa...

_ ho!

_ eg xviCa gvyavda magasTan, daavaJkaca da im debils ar Seuyvarda, to?! atexili iyo, colad unda moviyvanoo.

_ mere?

_ ra mere? kidev kai, nesim TviTon uTxra uari, Tore is magrad iyo gagiJebuli.

_ ho, ra! magas egeTi goimi vinme Tu moiyvans!

mere, meore dRes ara da, mesame dRes, martom mivakiTxe nesis. koWli saxlSi ar iyo da TviTonve gamiRo kari. rom daminaxa, gaexarda. saWmels Wamda, Semwvar kartofils da mimipatiJa. ki mSioda, magram magasTan ra SemaWmevda da ise davujeqi magidasTan. is dinjad da auCqareblad Wamda, Tan raRac melodias RiRinebda da fanjridan iyureboda. magidaze gadavixare wylis asaRebad, tafas gamovede da Zirs gadmovagde. kartofili daipna. nesi daixara, xeliT akrifa, TefSze dailaga da Wama ganagrZo. me ucbad Semjavrda is da gineba davuwye. nesis xma ar amouRia, Cumad morCa Wamas, Cumadve aalaga da gverdiT oTaxSi gavida. raki gamosvla daigviana, SevakiTxe. is iatakze ijda da radios usmenda. winaaRmdegoba ar gauwevia, roca gaxda davuwye, magram ukanasknel wams gamomecala da vibanaveb da Semovalo, miTxra. ar ginda banaoba, iyavi egeTive WuWyiani, rogorc xar-meTqi. man ki mxrebi aiCeCa da ubralod, banaobis mere qaliSviliviT varo, Tqva da damiwva. me veraferi gavige da gadavaweqi. momeCvena, rom iseve RiRinebda, rogorc Wamisas, magram aRaraferi vuTxari.

roca gaviRviZe, Tmas imSralebda. ase, dauxatavi ufro kargi Sesaxedavi iyo. tuCebi kertebiviT fermkrTali hqonia, Tvalebi ki _ nacrisferi. nabanavebi ufro patara gogos hgavda da isev mominda. amjerad movefere.

_ ratom xar aseTi CaTlaxi? _ veCurCulebodi da vsunavdi.

_ ara var CaTlaxi, aseTi var! _ ambobda da Tvalebi ebliteboda.

_ CaTlaxi xar, CaTlaxi! metic, saSineli CaTlaxi da dampali xar, fuls rom ar iReb da ase, ufasod rom aZlev yvelas!

_ ara var, ara var CaTlaxi, aseTi var!

ucbad, raRacnairad Semecoda da Tan SemZulda, rom marTla aseTi iyo da moferebas SeveSvi da xalaTi gavxade. marTla qaliSviliviT iyo, usisxlo qaliSviliviT.

ra qeni, gogo, Sabis abazanebi miiRe-meTqi, vkiTxe, man ki ucbad moiwyina da Tvalebi daxuWa. mivxvdi eZineboda da SeveSvi. sanam eZina, Sokoladi da koniaki amovitane da erT filmsac vuyure. raRacnairi mSvidi Zili hqonda, Rimiliani da rom vakvirdebodi, mec meRimeboda. mTeli sami saaTi eZina, bolos daviRale da gavaRviZe. sawolSi mivutane, vifiqre esiamovneba-meTqi, magram reaqcia ar hqonia, Cveulebrivad miiRo.

_ koniaki amovitane, davlioT!

_ me ara vsvam.

_ aba, tyuilad amovitane? dalev!

_ kargi, davlev, magram SeiZleba cudad gavxde da varwyio!

adga; kartofils wvavda, roca qvevidan dauZaxes. viRac ori biWi iyo. nesi Cavida. zevidan vuyurebdi, raRaceebi uTxres, mere Cxubi dauwyes da Tan zeviT iyurebodnen. me erTi gemrielad gadavafurTxe da Tavi Semovyavi.

kartofili Seiwva, daiwva, nesi mainc ar Canda. gadavixede da aRarc biWebi iyvnen, aRarc manqana. dabla Cavirbine _ nesi arsad iyo._ magaT wayva eg CaTlaxi, davaskveni da avtrialdi.

saSinlad Seuracxyofilad vgrZnobdi Tavs, damcirebulad, ase rom momeqcnen. ra unda meqna?

erTi piroba mTeli saxli gadavatriale, iqneb rame Zvirfasi vipovno-meTqi _ araferi iyo. mere vifiqre, kars davuketav da gasaRebs waviReb, gareT davtoveb am siciveSi-meTqi da asec vapirebdi moqcevas, rom koWli movida.

_ gamarjoba, nesi ar aris? _ mkiTxa, samzareuloSi Sevida, Cemi SesaWmeli kartofili SeWama, Cemi motanili koniaki dalia da Sokoladic zed daayola. aman sul mTlad gamacofa da Saris modeba davuwye, magram is Zalian mSvidad mpasuxobda; mere gverdiT oTaxSi gavida, miwva da miiZina.

erTi saaTic velode nesis da wamovedi.

sam dReSi isev mivakiTxe. ar daumalavs im biWebs ratomac wayva: _ ra vqna, Zalian mTxovdnen da uari veRar vuTxari, Tan vifiqre Sen mainc albaT aRar gendomebodao.

me gavcecxldi. Tavs ase rom isawylebda, aman ufro gamabraza da gineba davuwye. is ar mepasuxeboda da amaze sul mTlad gadavirie da gavartyi. tirili daiwyo da saabazanoSi Sevarda. naxevar saaTSi gamovida da bodiSi momixada; nabanavebi qaliSviliviT iyo.

_ ratom ikeTeb Sabis abazanebs, ar gezareba?

_ ar vikeTeb, ubralod, banaobis mere egre var.

_ bozi xar!

_ ara, ara var bozi, aseTi var!

yovel dRe davdiodi nesisTan. xan dReSi orjer, samjerac mivsulvar, roca guli aRar miTmenda. am xnis ganmavlobaSi, erTxelac ar gamomirTmevia fuli.

koWls ise SeveCvie, misi TandaswrebiTac vwvebodi nesisTan. is ise mSvidad gviyurebda xolme, TiTqos nards vTamaSobdiT. daveWvdi da nesis vkiTxe.

_ ho, avariaSi rac moyva, aRar udgeba, impotentia!

_ ratom acxovreb SenTan?

_ adre Cemi sayvareli iyo; mere avariaSi rom moyva, dakoWlda kidec da muSaobac aRar SeuZlia. Tan, xnieri mamida hyavs Sesanaxi da Cven vinaxavT.

_ e.i. Sen inaxav?!

_ ho, ra!

_ da aq rato rCeba?

_ azrze ara var. erTxel darCa da mere sul rCeba. Tu vetyvi midis, problema ar aris.

_ da Sen ras Soulob imdens, rom mag maTxovarsac inaxav da mamidamissac?

_ maTxovari araa. me TviTon vexmarebi... Svidi lari gamomdis yovel dRe da gvyofnis.

_ Sen debili xar, Tu Tavs iStereb, Tu me maStereb?_ ratom?

_ ra ratom? viRac koWl impotents da mis mamidas inaxav da ise, arafrisaTvis?

_ ra SuaSia eg? Sen rom mTxovo, ar dagexmarebi?

_ me me var. me gxmarob da imitom damexmarebi.

_ egre sxvebic modian da... me problema ara maqvs.

am dRidan fulis Txovna davuwye. yovel dRe or-sam lars varTmevdi da yulabaSi vyridi. mere ki, viTom dabadebis dRe rom aRvuniSne da Taiguli da Gucci rash-i rom mivutane, sixarulisagan kinaRam gadairia. yvavilebi lamazad Caawyo ramodenime larnakSi da mTeli saxli morTo, sunamos xmareba ki ver moaswro _ meore dRes, mezobels Seutana dabadebis dReze. mixvda rom mewyina, magram bodiSi momixada da amiT morCa yvelaferi.

erTxel me vkiTxe: _ Cven Tavs ar vicavT, nuTu ar orsuldebi?

_ ara, ar vorsuldebi, me verasodes davorsuldebi.

TandaTan, nela Wama viswavle. davsxdebodiT erTad da neba-neba vilukmebodiT. mas odnav sasacilo da Tan Zalian seriozuli saxe hqonda, magram arasodes seqsSi ar uaqtiuria.

mere ki, moulodnelad aRmovaCine, rom zurgze uzarmazari naWrilobevi hqonia.

_ es ra aris?

_ es iaraa; am iariT davibadeT me da Cemi da!

ase gavige, rom tyupiscali hyolia, oRond_ Cven mamiT varT mxolod erTni! da me mamas gogo var!_ rogor Tu mxolod mamiT? maSin, rogorRa xarT tyupebi? nesim gaicina da eh, veravin igebs da aRarc vxsnio. misi tyupiscali monazoni yofila, Tavis patara biWTan erTad cxovrobs taZarSio.

_ bavSvi visia?

_ eg ojaxis patara saidumloa, romelsac ar gavTqvam. rodesme albaT mec taZarSi waval... albaT!

ucbad gamaxsenda vinc iyo da nervebmoSlilma davuyvire: _ Sen erTi bozi xar, romelmac bozobac ar icis!

_ me bozi ara var,  me aseTi var! _ mipasuxa mSvidad da ga­da­brunda.

_ mismine, nesi! ramdenime welSi, Sen ise daberdebi da dauSnovdebi, meti rom aRar SeiZleba.

_ mec vici rom davberdebi, mere?

_ mere da, bozob _ bozob da fuli mainc aiRe, rom normalurad icxovro da siberec normaluri gqondes. xom SegiZlia zogs mainc gamoarTva fuli, gamoiyeno eg... dawyevlili saSo, romelsac SenarCuneba ar SeuZlia. xom SegiZlia, Rame mainc aRar imuSao viriviT da metic, Cemnair maTxovrebs fuli ar aZlio?! Sen ubralod ara xar normaluri, Sen... Sen raRac gWirs!

_ ra vqna, aba?! aseTi var!

da me daviwye imis garkveva, Tu ratom iyo is `aseTi~. aTasi rame wavikiTxe, aTas vinmes velaparake, magram amomwuravi pasuxi veravisgan Sevityve. Tumca, iyo ramodenime varianti, romlebmac damafiqres.

I varianti

fsiqoTerapiuli skola `mencari~, i.f. ra aris meZaoba (prostitucia)? sayovelTaod cnobili azria, rom meZavs sqesobrivi aqti ar siamovnebs. amas imiT xsnian, TiTqos am saqmis profesiad gaxdoma aClungebdes maT. es ar aris swori. isini, swored imitom xdebian meZavebi, rom `qaluri sisuste~ sWirT. maT araTu ar siamovnebT aqti, uaresi, ver itanen, ezizRebaT, `cud~ saqcielad, sibinZured Tvlian. ufro sworad ki, ki ar Tvlian, ase ganicdian. maT ar ician amis mizezi da naklulobis, arasrulfasovnebis kompleqsi uCndebaT. es kompleqsi, aseve aracnobierad, dakmayofilebas moiTxovs _ am sisustis gadalaxvas. gadalaxvis erT-erTi gza aris misi arSemCneva, damtkiceba, rom igi nakluli ki ara, piriqiT, bevris sasurveli, sanatrelia. amiT icxovrebs kidec da sakmaod kargadac. meZaobis gaWirvebiT axsna, TiTqos xelmokleoba aiZulebs qalebs am gzas daadgnen, Zalian advili uarsayofia, ganxilvad arc Rirs. is SemTxveva, razec Tqven mesaubrebiT, martivi asaxsnelia: _ sazogadod, msgavs adamians aqvs arasrulfasovnebis garkveuli kompleqsi + sqesobrivi cxovrebis SiSi. imisda mixedviT, Tu am oridan romeli dominirebs, gamodian nesis magvari qalebi, an qalebi, romelTac saerTod ar SeuZliaT sqesobriv kontaqtSi Sesvla. Tu adamianSi (am SemTxvevaSi qalSi) arasrulfasovnebis kompleqsi sWarbobs SiSs, maSin igi icxovrebs sqesobrivad, magram Tavisi kompleqsis wyalobiT, erTi partnioriT dakmayofilebas verasodes miiRebs. xolo, Tu masSi SiSi ufro metia, maSin igi saerTod ver SeZlebs intimur cxovrebas...

...SiSebi? SiSebi, sazogadod, bavSvobidan modis, iq iRebs saTaves.

II varianti

givi alaznispireli (ezoTeriki)

me oriode sityviT davamateb suliwmindiT mdidari sxeulis zogierTi Tvisebis Sesaxeb, rom maTi upirvelesi simptomi, es Zlieri emociurobaa. ar axasiaTebT sidinje (an cdiloben iyvnen dinjebi) uyvarT iumori, Rimili, sicili... da Tu tirian, aqac normaze meti igrZnoba, vinaidan gadaWarbebulebi arian tirilSic da sicilSic. raRa Tqma unda, aseTi pirebis sxeulSi adgili aqvs suliwmindis sapirispiro velsac. swored es badebs maT cnobierebaSi paradoqsul Semecnebasa da xSir SemTxvevaSi _ daqvemdebarebasac ki, rac SesaZloa WeSmaritebis wvdomis gzac aRmoCndes.

pirveli, rac maT axasiaTebT _ esaa raimes gacemis unarianoba: _ Tanxis, nivTebis, produqtebis, tansacmlis, magram es exeba, rogorc sagnebs, aseve piradi sxeulis gacemas, amitom, mandilosani, romlis hipofizic metad gaatarebs miwaSi tabuirebuli velis sixSireebs, iolad ixdis kabas ucxo mamakacebTanac ki da misi gaSiSvlebuli sxeuli advilad dasamorCilebeli xdeba. vimeoreb: qalis aseT saqciels irgvliv arsebuli velis momatebuli gamtarianoba xsnis. aseTi mandilosnebi advilad eguebian sxvadasxva (ucxo) mamakacebTan intimur siaxloves _ viTomc aq araferia! es maTi sulieri dakmayofilebis mcdelobaa, Tumc, xSir SemTxvevaSi, qali mainc ver kmayofildeba mruSobiT, radgan sxeulis fizikuri gacema ar niSnavs sxeulis sulier dakmayofilebas. seqsualuri aqti, am SeTxvevaSi, warmoadgens mxolod da mxolod mcdelobas daakmayofilos piradi qvecnobiereba da masSi kodirebuli simruSe. sacodavi qalebi, me dRemde vamtyunebdi maT, (Tumca, es rodi niSnavs, rom mruS qalebs pasuxismgebloba exsnebaT).

III varianti

Cemi megobris interviu (23 wlis) gogosTan_ pirvelad rodis Sexvedi intimur siaxloveSi?

_ 18-is rom viyavi. zafxuli iyo. agarakze viyavi mSoblebTan erTad. iq megobarma gogonam gamacno 30 wlis simpaTiuri mamakaci da mec cnobismoyvareobis gamo erT saRamos, manqaniT seirnobis Semdeg, davnebdi.

_ ra igrZeni maSin?

_ tkivilis meti araferi. mere im kacs aRar Sevxvedrivar. naxevari wlis Semdeg Cemma megobarma gamacno Tavisi mezobeli. is 20 wlis iyo, TbilisSi binas qiraobda. Zalian Semiyvarda da erTi wlis manZilze vxvdebodiT. swavla rom daamTavra, raionSi dabrunda. Zalian ganvicade da gadavwyvite aRarasodes aravin Semyvareboda. ori Tvis Semdeg, yofili Seyvarebulis Zmakacs miveci, ise!

_ ras niSnavs ise?

_ (pauza). Suri viZie yofil Seyvarebulze, magram me da is Zmakaci erTi-orjer SevxvdiT da morCa!

_ mere sindisi ar gqejnida?

_ ara, Tavs damcirebulad vgrZnobdi. ramdenime Tvis Semdeg nacnobebTan gavicani 35 wlis, col-Sviliani, fuliani kaci. saxlSi gamacila manqaniT da mec... miveci!

_ am kacs ramdenjer Sexvdi?

_ samjer. jer restoranSi mivyavdi, mere manqanaSi vSvrebodiT amas.

_ ratom wvebi kacebTan, fulis gamo?

_ fuli arafer SuaSia. xSirad, piriqiT, me wamiyvania restoranSi. minda da msiamovnebs, yuradRebas rom maqceven, qalad rom mTvlian.

_ am 5 wlis manZilze, ramdeni kaci gyolia?

_ albaT Tormeti, magram dRemde yvelasTan normaluri urTierToba maqvs.

_ orgazms Tu ganicdi?

_ ara, aravisTan ar ganmicdia. albaT TviTon procesi msiamovnebs.

_ asakovani sayvareli Tu gyolia?

_ ki, erTi iyo 53 wlis. Zalian momwonda masTan yofna, bevr axalgazrdas jobda.

_ ar mogbezrda manqanaSi, an buCqebSi amis keTeba?

_ ki, magram ase ufro mZafri SegrZnebebi maqvs, Tan kacebs fulis xarjva ar undaT sastumroze.

_ gaTxovebaze ar gifiqria?

_ adre vfiqrobdi, axla aRar.

_ `kacebs~ Sen toveb Tu isini midian?

_ kacebi TviTon mtoveben. rac undaT, imas rom miiReben, aRar mirekaven. arian iseTebic, romlebic xSirad mexvewebian.

IV varianti

Cemi fsiqologi Tvlis:

nesis aqvs mkveTrad gamoxatuli eleqtras kompleqsi, romlis sublimirebasac is Tavis meZaobiT cdilobs. am kompleqsis arsebobaze mianiSnebs is faqtic, rom nesi xazgasmiT miuTiTebs `mamas gogoobaze~. amasTan, nesis Sizofreniis niSnebic aqvs, rasac misi ucnauri saubrebi amtkicebs masa da elenes tyupobasTan dakavSirebiT, kerZod is, rom isini mxolod mamiT arian erTni (aqac dedis ignorireba). ranairad SeiZleba adamians dediT sxva tyupiscali hyavdes? rac Seexeba imas, rom nesi fuls ar iRebs, esec advili asaxsnelia: _ vinaidan nesisaTvis kacebi mamasTan Canacvlebaa (e.i. nesi SenSi da SennairebSi uSedegod eZebs mamas), is, kacebs (mamas), sxva qalebisagan (dedisgan) gansxvavebiT, uangarod unda emsaxuros da seqsisTvis fuls ver gamoarTmevs.

V varianti

numerologis ara, magram numerologiaSi garkveuli kacis azri: me, ra Tqma unda, dabejiTebiT ver vityvi, rom Cemi mosazreba sworia, magram Tqvens mier daxasiaTebuli qalbatonis cxovrebis stils, pirovnebas, xasiaTs, SesaniSnavad xsnis numerologia. kerZod, Tqven ambobT, rom qals hqvia nesi da rom es saxeli man TviTon dairqva. sruli, naTlobis saxeli ki aris nestani, ara? kargiT, maSasadame, vcadoT orive saxelis gaSifvra:

4 5 9 1 1 4 9

n e s t a n i

SevkriboT ricxvebi. gamovida 33. daviyvanoT es ricxvi erTniSnamde, miviRebT 6-s. eqvsiani ki harmoniis, silamazisa da ritmis simboloa. mfarvelobs planeta venera.

`eqvsianebi~ patiosani, humanuri, kacTmoyvare arsebebi arian. did interess iCenen adamianebis mimarT. kargi sazogado moRvaweebi dgebian, Tumca maTTvis ojaxi umTavresia.

`eqvsianTan~ urTierToba sasiamovnoa, gawonasworebuli, momxibvleli da mosiyvarulea. sakmaod damTmobia, magram gabrazebac SeuZlia. maT uyvarT sunamoebi, yvavilebi, lamazi nivTebi. uxariaT, roca vinmes maspinZloben.

idealistebi, urTierTobaSi ubralo da araegoisturebi arian. mudam mzad arian gaWirvebaSi myofT daexmaron. arakeTilsindisier adamians SeuZlia borotad isargeblos maTi gulisxmierebiT. maT saerTod uWirT uaris Tqma. `eqvsianisgan~ SesaniSnavi eqimi, pedagogi, an gadia dadgeboda. es rac Seexeba naTlobis saxels. axla gamovTvaloT is saxeli, romliTac yvela icnobs mag qalbatons:

4 5 9 9

n e s i

gamovida 27. 2+7=9. `cxrianebs~ axasiaTebT axloblis siyvaruli, filosofiuroba, keTilSobileba da misticizmi. mfarvelobs planeta neptuni.

`cxrianebi~ Zalian mgrZnobiareni da STabeWdilebianni arian. sxvebze metad amJRavneben axloblis siyvaruls (daakvirdiT, es Tviseba naTlobis saxelSic hqonda). daCagrulebs, avadmyofebs, moxucebs sisxlismieri naTesavebiviT eqcevian, ganicdian maT mdgomareobas. mokled, isini yvelaze humanurebi arian. maTi mizania universaluri siyvaruli, sikeTis Tesva, urTierTgageba. amasTan, minda giTxraT, rom `cxrianebi~ metad ucnaur sizmrebs xedaven. maTi sizmrebi TiTqmis winaswarmetyveluria xolme, magram rac CvenTvis ucnauria, `cxrianisaTvis~ is yoveldRiurobaa.

maTTan yvela ver urTierTobs. zogi eTayvaneba `cxrians~, zogs ki (ufro xSirad asea) sZuls im usazRvro gacemis gamo, romelic mas SeuZlia. gasaTxovari `cxriani~ Tu advilad SeiZleba Seityuo loginSi, gaTxovilis cduneba TiTqmis SeuZlebelia, Tumca idealuri colebi mainc ar arian, radgan mTeli maTi energia sxvebis daxmarebaze midis. `cxrianebi~ umetesad iseT samsaxurSi gvxvdebian, sadac adamianebis daxmarebaa saWiro, amitom yvelaze xSiri `cxriania~ `cxriani~-medda-pedagogi-gadia-religiuri moRvawe!

yvelaze didi nakli, rac cxrianebs aqvT, esaa yuradRebis gafantuloba da fulis uyairaTod xarjva. isini Zalian guluxvni arian da fuli sWirdebaT mxolod cxovrebis yofiTi mxareebis mosagvareblad da sxvebis dasaxmareblad. andaza romaa: erTi Txilis guli cxra Zmam gaiyoo, SemTxveviT ar ukavSirdeba cxrians.

yvelaferi es imisaTvis damWirda, rom meCvenebina TqvenTvis, rogoria nesi da rogori iyo. e.i. Tu kargad gamovTqvam, nestansa da nesis Soris Tuki raime sxvaobaa, gacemis mxarea gaZlierebuli. mTlianobaSi, albaT, karg pirovnebasTan gveqneba saqme.

da erTic, sayuradReboa is faqtic, rom naTlobis saxelis planeta venera miTologiaSi xorcieli tkbobisa da qorwinebis simboloa. Tu es planeta horoskopSic aRmoaCnda, maSin SeiZleba am pirovnebam `gacema~ fizikur aspeqtSic daiwyos.

VI varianti

Cemi nacnobi diletanti astrologi mimtkicebs: rom nesis ar SeuZlia sxvanairad icxovros, radgan is dabadebulia SegrZnebiTi Tevzis wels da mis horoskopSi planeta venera da iupiteri ukve gulisxmobs, rom qali mzadaa fizikur samyaroSi icxovros, siamovneba miiRos da rac SeiZleba meti gasces. misive azriT, nesisagan SesaZlebeli iyo SesaniSnavi medda, an kargi monazoni damdgariyo.

VII varianti

am moTxrobis damweris azri: marTalia, Cemi personaJi azRaprebs Txrobas da TiTqmis sentimentalurad lamaz istorias gviyveba nesize, rogorc poeturi sulis mqone, maxinj bozze, romlis mruSobac TiTqmis sikeTed aRiqmeba, me mainc vfiqrob, rom am sakiTxisadami amgvari midgoma arasasurveli da, cota ar iyos, saSiSicaa.

Tavidan, gurami TiTqos erTgvari ironiiT ixseniebs nesis, magram am ironiaSi ukve igrZnoba dafaruli mokrZaleba, rac, dameTanxmebiT, tendenciurobis pirvelwyaroa. diax, nesis guramiseuli da guramis mier mokvleuli Tu gamokiTxuli pirovnebebiseuli Sefasebebi tendenciuria, Tumca amaze pirdapiri miniSneba arsadaa. me vesaubre gurams am sakiTxTan dakavSirebiT da am ukanasknelma, cota ar iyos, uxeSad mipasuxa: _ Tu me vtyuivar, maSin Senc matyuara xar, radgan Seni gamonagoni varo. am sityvebze gaicina da mivxvdi, rom gamomiWira, radgan Cemive SeTxzuli azrebiT majoba.

kargi, majoba Cemive naazrevma da SeTxzulma personaJma, magram me, avtors, sruli da kanonieri ufleba maqvs Cemi, sakuTari (Tundac mikerZoebuli) azri viqonio nesize:

nesi, ragindnairadac ginda gaSifro, mainc bozia, erTi Cveulebrivi meZavi, romelic, SeiZleba marTla ar iRebs fuls siyvarulisTvis, magram samagierod, dabejiTebiT iTqmis, rom is egoistia.

nesisTana qalebi, rogorc wesi, `Secdenilebi~ arian, anu mudmivad msxverplis rolSi aRmoCndebian xolme, magram es, ra Tqma unda, moCvenebiTia. is imitomaa `msxverpli~, rom ase sWirdeba; ase ufro met siTbos, siyvaruls da yuradRebas miipyrobs, miiRebs (gaamaxvileT yuradReba _ miiRebs) da ara gascems, rogorc gurami da misnairebi (sazogadod, qal-vaJis urTierTobaSi isedac kaci gaiRebs, Tu fiziologiuri kuTxiT vimsjelebT)!

aseTi qalebi, asakis momatebasTan erTad, mkiTxaobas da maWanklobas iwyeben. isini, arc axalgazrda gogonebis `gamsxverplebas~ eridebian da xSirad, Teoriuladac mSvenivrad amzadeben am ukanasknelT. maTTvis damaxasiaTebelia or WiqaSi tirili da sevdiani sadRegrZeloebis Tqma, magram aravin ar grZnobs materialur samyaroSi maTze laRad Tavs. isini, raRaciT, momparavebs da vaWrebs gvanan. da miuxedavad maTi Tavaziani Rimilisa da gamoxedvisa, neba ar unda misceT Semogexvion, Torem SeiZleba gaggudon.

nesi da misnairebi, cota fsiqikaSeryeulebi arian, Tumca arc guramisnairebsa aqvT yvelaferi rigze!

erTaderTi, rac am gamokvlevebma Cvens urTierTobaSi Secvala, iyo is, rom yureba davuwye, rogorc avadmyofs. is marTlac avadmyofi iyo, radgan Taviseburi wesi hqonda wylis dalevis, puris kbeCis da Taviseburad irCevda xatebs, romlebTanac unda eloca. yvelaze metad ki maocebda misi sizmrebi. me maTi Cawera da Cems fsiqoTerapevtTan mitana daviwye. es ukanaskneli sul ufro metad ganmtkicda Tavis mosazrebebSi, rom nesis eleqtras kompleqsi hqonda da mec davijere misi sityvebi. ai erT-erTi sizmari, romelic yvelaze metad ganicada nesim: vxedav unayofo miwas, romelzec marili mouyriaT. am miwaze viRac mamakaci TiTiT raRacas wers da iRimeba. me mivdivar da veubnebi, rom vicnob mas da vTxov eklesiaSi wamiyvanos. is dgeba da CemTan erTad modis. roca saydarSi SevdivarT, xmamaRla vyvirivar, rom es kaci mefea _ is qristea da vadgam gvirgvins, magram xalxi damcinis. me mrcxvenia. vtirivar, magram ver gamovrbivar. meRviZeba.

sizmris Cemi fsiqoTerapevtiseuli interpretacia:_ is faqti, rom nesi sizmarSi kvlavac gvirgvindadgmul kacs xedavs, Cems varauds adasturebs. gvirgvindadgmuli kaci _ mefe, simbolizirdeba mamasTan, romlisadmi libidoc qals aSkarad didi aqvs. am SemTxvevaSi miwa _ qalis genitaliebTan, Tavad nesisTan simbolizirdeba, romelzec kaci (mama) TiTiT (penisiT) wers (sqesobriv kontaqtSi Sedis), magram nesis es ar akmayofilebs, is cdilobs saxalxod icxovros mamasTan (saydarSi wayvanis survili), magram, amave dros, mas SiSic aqvs am Tanacxovrebis amoralurobis (xalxis dacinva, am SemTxvevaSi, super-egos winaaRmdegobaa)!

rac Seexeba imas, rom gvirgvinosan mamakacTan qristes saxelic figurirebs, aqac Sefaruli simbolikaa _ nesi eklesiaSi loculobs qriste _ RmerTis (mamis) winaSe.

mokled, davrwmundi, rom is avad iyo da Cemma pativmoyvareobam maiZula mis mkurnalobaze mefiqra. me, ase Tu ise, ukve verkveodi fsiqologiaSi da CavTvale, rom SemeZlo raRac meRona. pirvel rigSi, vecade yvelaferi momeyolinebina, rac bavSvobidan axsovda. es sakmaod advili aRmoCnda, radgan nesis mexsiereba 5 Tvis asakidan hqonda SenarCunebuli. me eWvi Semepara am maxsovrobis realurobaSi da hipnozuri ZiliT vcade misi Semowmeba. nesi advilad STagonebadi iyo, amitom ucbad gadavida hipnozur ZilSi. Tumca aqedan imaze meti informacia ver miviRe, rac Tavad nesim momiTxro. maSin vcade e.w. `mamis xati~ vinme konkretul pirze gadaetana da mere am pirs misTxoveboda. vin SemerCia? yvelaze realur kandidatad isev koWli mesaxeboda, Tumca aq erTma seriozulma problemam iCina Tavi _ nesis gaTxoveba ar undoda.

_ ai, ratom ar ginda, aba?

_ ar vici! ubralod me ar SemiZlia erTi kacis viyo. an unda yvelasTan davwve, an aravisTan.

_ ver gavige, ratom? nuTu ar SegiZlia ubralod gaTxovde da rogorc yvela normalurma qalma ise icxovro?

_ ara, ar SemiZlia _ qmars ver vuRalateb.

_ eg zRaparia. Sen ukve Cvevad gaqvs bozoba da ginda, ar ginda, uRalateb, magram mTavari eg ar aris, mTavaria amdenTan ar dawve, Torem erTxelac aikideb rames da...

_ Sen ratom ar mogyavs coli?

_ jer ra meCqareba? ocdaerTi wlisa var!

_ egaa mizezi?

_ ki! (pauza) ho, kargi, CemTvis Sesaferisi qali ar mipovnia.

_ da rogoria SenTvis Sesaferisi?

_ unda iyos yvelaze lamazi, saSualod Wkviani, erTguli, meojaxe. unda uyvardes bavSvebi da, rac mTavaria, unda hqondes bevri fuli!

_ da yvelaferi eg erTbaSad?

_ ki.

_ eg xom ramdenime qalia. da Tanac, Sen ra gaqvs?

_ me? me niWieri var... vswavlob sabankoze da potenciurad erT-erTi udidesi saqmosani var, Tan, Tan... Tan raRaca maqvs iseTi, rac yvelasgan gamomarCevs.

_ mainc ra?

_ ar vici, egre ver vityvi, magram raRac aris, me vgrZnob amas.

_ ee, me meubnebi gaTxovdio da mgoni Sen darCe egre.

_ me ar davrCebi, Sen ki... ver xvdebi, dagexmaro minda.

_ damexmaro? maSin momiyvane colad, Sen wamogyvebi!

_ ara, me ver mogiyvan, mara, ai, vTqvaT koWli, riTia cudi saqmro?

Tanac SeCveulebi xarT, Tanac ar eWvianobs Senze!

nesi siciliT mokvda da amaze metad aRar gvisaubria.

amasobaSi me triperi avikide da nesisTan dawolas veridebodi. ai, rogor moxda es:

_ wveulebaze gavicani Cemi klaselis coli, sakmaod lamazi, fuliani da saerTodac, kargi xasiaTis gogo. rogorc ityvian, davkere da biZaCemis erToTaxianSi triperiT davsaCuqrdi.

nesis ukvirda Turme, rom aRar vakiTxavdi. SemTxveviT SevxvdiT da momenatreo, miTxra. roca gaigo, rac mWirda, bevri icina da im gogom ki ar gadagdo, Sen Tavs TviTon akide eg daavadeba, ase Zalian rom giyvars fulio. mere manganumiani wylis abazanebi gamikeTa, bebiamisis gakeTebuli raRac balaxis wveni damalevina, Cems spermas akoca da ganmkurna.

magram erT kviraSi me mainc SeveSvi masTan siaruls. ubralod mombezrda, SemzizRda da SeveSvi, Tumca samsaxuri verafrisdidebiT viSove, verc mdidari sacole movnaxe da gabrazebul gulze isev nesisTan davbrundi Cemi boRmis, dardis da materialuri energiis amosanTxevad, magram nesi iq aRar damxvda. ubralod iq aRar iyo da morCa.

a) yvavilebi, sasmeli da saWmeli viyide da wavedi. xom ase SemzizRda TiTqos, magram im wuTas raRacnairad mimixaroda masTan. kargi SeyvarebuliviT viyavi, bednieris saxe mqonda da winaswar warmomedgina, rogor Semxvdeboda. netav sxva kaci ar damxvdes da meti araferi minda-meTqi, vfiqrobdi da roca warmovidgine, rom SesaZloa vinme yofiliyo nesisTan, eWvisagan kinaRam gavTavdi.

 _ miyvars, dedas vficavar, miyvars! SeiZleba colad ar moviyvano, magram egre qali ar Semiyvardeba. Cemi sacodavi, bozi nesi! Tu, vTqvaT-da saxlSi ar iqneboda, warmovidgine, rogor Camovjdebodi sadarbazos kibeze da davelodebodi. is, albaT, daRlil-daqanculi dabrundeboda. sanam zed ar wamadgeboda, ver SemniSnavda (TavCaRunuli siaruli icis). roca SemniSnavda, Sexteboda da daibneoda. vici, tirils daiwyebda da akankalebuli Zlivas moargebda klites gasaRebs. Cven SevidodiT da saocari wuTebi dagvidgeboda. is aRar iqneboda aseTi civi, vnebisagan gagiJdeboda da metyoda: miyvarxar, mxolod Sen miyvarxar! me SevTavazebdi, bavSvi aviyvanoT, erTad gavzardoT da Tqven Cemi patara saidumlo iqnebiT-meTqi. is gaCumdeboda. me vetyodi: ara, colad ar momyavxar, _ ubralod bavSvi viyolioT. me Cemi ojaxi meqneba, Sen ki, roca ginda, visTanac ginda daweqi _ Sen xom egeTi xar! nesi tirils daiwyebda da ufro dauSnovdeboda, magram me mainc meyvareboda _ is xom aseTi sacodavi da avadmyofuri iyo!

mokled, avedi mexuTe sarTulze, davazare da viRac wels zeviT SiSvelma kacma gaaRo kari. ucbad gavbrazdi Cemi sentimentaluri fiqrebis gamo da gavifiqre: _ is xom bozia, erTi Cveulebrivi bozi, romelsac RmerTma uwyis ra awuxebs. mere ra, rom fuls ar iRebs, is mainc bozia, bozi! da gabrazebulma xeliT mivwie kaci da binaSi Sesvla davapire._ sad midixar, Zmao? _ mkiTxa dabneulma.

_ sad mivdivar da dedofals Tayvani unda vce! _ geslad viqeci.

_ Sen xom ar uberav, biWo? vina xar, amixseni?

_ ra vina var, nesisTan mivdivar.

_ vin nesisTan?

_ vinaa nesi?! vinc aq cxovrobs.

_ aq me vcxovrob, Zmao da araviTari nesi aq ar aris!

amasobaSi viRac Casuqebuli qalic gamovida da ra xdebao, ikiTxa. me odnav ukan davixie, sarTuli xom ar SemeSala-meTqi, magram ara _ sworad movsuliyavi.

_ mapatieT, magram am binaSi nesisTan movdiodi xolme, ai, koWli kacic rom cxovrobda masTan, biWebi akiTxavdnen xSirad.

_ rodis modiodi?

_ erTi Tvis win viyavi bolos.

_ ara, Zmao, raRac geSleba namdvilad. meeqvse welia aq vcxovrob da araviTari nesi ar viciT, am sadarbazoSi egeTi vafSe aravinaa. me misamarTi davasaxele. sworad maxsovda. raRacnairad eWvi Semepara am kacSi, yvavilebi da sursaTi mivawode da sanam is gons movidoda, binaSi Sevvardi. ara, sul sxva bina iyo, sul sxva oTaxebi.

diasaxlisi ukve kioda, kaci ki ukan damsdevda gineb-ginebiT. me aRar Sevepasuxe, egreve gamovvardi.

saSineli dRe iyo.

b) valerim gamomiara manqaniT da ludis dasalevad wavediT. nesisTan aRar dadixar-meTqi, vkiTxe da gakvirvebiT Semomxeda. erTi Tvea ar mivsulvar da ubralod mainteresebs-meTqi, vuTxari. valerim, mekaifebi, Tu ra ariso. ras gekaifebi, misvla minda da mainteresebs isev iq cxovrobs, Tu ara-meTqi. nesi mokvdao, miTxra.

_ ra mokvda, ras kaifob, seriozulad gekiTxebi.

_ mec seriozulad geubnebi, mokvda. ar gagigia? mTeli biWebi daSinebulebi varT, analizebze davrbivarT ramdeni xania; me megona icodi!

_ ra vicodi?

_ raRaca sWirda Turme da imiT mokvda. Sen uprezervativod xmarobdi?

_ ho.

_ hoda, davai, xvalve wadi eqimTan, RmerTma dagifaros da rame ar gWirdes.

meore dRemde ra gamaCerebda da biZaCemis klinikaSi gavvardi da sisxli Cavabare.

wyeuli bozi!

g) samsaxuri rom ver viSove da verc mdidari coli moviyvane, gabrazebul gulze isev nesis mivadeqi.

fanjridan koWli iyureboda. daminaxa, Tu ara, micno da erTi boTli arayi wamomiReo, damiyvira.

_ am xanigas uyure, mec rom miyenebs! _ gavifiqre gabrazebulma da sirbiliT avirbine kibeebi. karebi Ria iyo da Sevedi. saSineli suni idga. iatakze tansacmeli iyo mimofantuli, viRacas talaxiani fexebiT uvlia da adRlamuzebuli iyo iqauroba. koWli samzareuloSi ijda da sigarets eweoda.

_ amomitane arayi?

me pasuxi ar gaveci da saabazanoSi Sevedi xel-piris dasabanad.

_ nesi sadaa?

_ nesi? oo, ne-si! hi, hi! nesis bozi dedac! eg xo qali ara yofila!

_ ra iyo, ra moxda?

_ ra moxda?! marTla ar ici? hi, hi! wavida nesi!

_ sad wavida?

_ sad wavida da wavida eg bozi, CaTlaxi, dampali! monasterSi wavida.

_ rogor Tu monasterSi?

_ ai, egre! arc me mjeroda, magram egrea. werili gamomigzavna, aq kargad vgrZnob Tavs, bodiSi rom migatove, magram riTac SevZleb, dagexmarebio. eg axvari ega! ra gamikeTa, azrze xar? _ damRupa kaci. viRa marCens axla an me, an mamidaCems? ra gavakeTo, ra? maTxovrobac rom ar SemiZlia?

da tirili daiwyo.

_ kargi, ho, nu wuwuneb! aha, gamomarTvi, am dReebSi kidev amoval da rames amogitan! _ rac fuli mqonda, magidaze davugde _ romel monasterSia?

_ ra vici, aba?! Sen mainc momxede, Seni Wirime. vicodi, rom Sen erTaderTi xar, vinc ar gagvwiravda me da mamidaCems, Sen Semogevle! da Zlivs moviSore.

sadRa unda meZebna nesi, romel monasterSi, an hqonda ki azri da gamovbrundi.

_ Tu miagno, uTxari, RmerTi gadagixdis samagieros-Tqo! iqneb aqamde CamomiTrio eg kaxpa da mere me vici! mivubrundi da icinoda. koWli iyo!

d) sasmeli, yvavilebi, raRac-raRaceebi da misi sayvareli sunamo Gucci Rash-i viyide da wavedi. korpusTan rom mivedi, axlobeli biWebi Semxvdnen da gamovelaparake. sad midixaro, rom mkiTxes, nesisTan-meTqi, vuTxari. romel nesisTano da ai, mexuTeze rom cxovrobs, koWlTan erTad-meTqi.

_ magaze ar gagigia?

_ ra unda gamego?!

_ eg xo dabrides, biWo!

Turme erT-erTi sayvareli policieli hyolia. am policiels kidev, col-Svili hyolia. im colma, eWvianobis gamo, qmris ufrosTan uCivla nesis da daiWireso. fuli sad hqonia im sacodavs da erTi saqmec (mgoni narkotikebis gayidva) SeuteniaT da gausamarTlebiaT. cixeze viyaviT ramdenimejerme biWebi, peredaCi wavuReT da gauxardao, miTxres. cixeSi viRac qals Seuyvarda Turme (koWli yofila), orjer nasamarTlevi yofila, meored mkvlelobisTvis mjdara. Seuyvarda Turme da Cemi coli iyavio, uTqvams nesisTvis. es kidev, Turme yuradRebas ar aqcevda da eWvianobis gamo mouklavs im patimars.

_ mZinaresTvis Caurtyams dana xuTjer. mTeli cixe tiroda, ise ecodebodaT sacodavi nesio. komisariatas Zma roa, xo ici, badragad ro muSaobs, ai iman mogviyva, ra!

aravin rom aRar miakiTxa micvalebuls, saerTo sasaflaoze daumarxavT da kacma ar icis sadaa axla magisi saflavio. is yvavilebi viRac gamvlels vaCuqe, Gucci Rash-i mezoblis bavSvs _ nestans. sasmeli kidev, iqve davlieT da mere ori dRe vkvdebodi nabaxusevze.

e) amaswinaT, Cems axlad SerTul meuRlesTan erTad saerTo megobris dabadebis dReze mivdiodi. metrosTan yvavilebi viyideT da roca iqve mdgar jixurSi Sampanuris sayidlad SevediT, nesi davinaxe. wamiT gaiRima, magram Cems daseriozulebul saxes rom Sexeda, Tavi daxara. rodesac gamovdiodiT, raRacnairad Semrcxva. Sevbrundi da nesi, rogor xar-meTqi, vkiTxe. Tavidan, viTom ver micno. mere, vaime, Sen rogor xar, rogor Secvlilxar, ramdeni xania ar minaxixar, eg lamazi gogona Seni meuRlea, Svilic xom ara gyavs, sxva ras Svrebi, muSaoba xom ar daiwyeo da a.S. damaxala kiTxvebi, romlebsac, colis Tvalebs wamwydarma, mSralad da naZaladevad, ho-araTi vupasuxe da davemSvidobe.

gamosuls, meuRlem mkiTxa, vin iyoo da erTi Cemi megobris coli-meTqi. ra bozuri Sesaxedaoba hqondao, dausva diagnozi da damakvirda. Cemda sasaxelod unda iTqvas, rom arc ki gavwiTldi.

 

pauza.

 

sizmari vnaxe matarebelSi: _ xalxis brbom airbina da Cairbina quCaze. mere kacebi gamoeyvnen qalebs da bozs qvebi dauSines. mere dawynardnen da RiRin-RiRiniT wavidnen. mere qalebmac, yoveli SemTxvevisaTvis, erTi-ori qva daumates da isinic wavidnen. mere mec, xalxisagan mowyvetilad rom ar megrZno Tavi, ukve mkvdars, patara kenWi vesrole da gaviqeci.

 

VIII da sagulisxmo cvlileba

fexSiSvela davdivar.

 

 

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